I wanted to do a follow up regarding Luna and her passing.
First let me tell you that our vet was amazing. They talked us through the entire process and went it was all said and done they sent us this note with Luna's actually paw print on it. How nice is that?
Also a lot of people were asking about how the kids are taking it. To start things off, Charlotte has asked only a hand full of times and when we give her an answer she drops it from there. However Isabella has been a little different.
In the past we have talked to Isabella about death and dieing due to the fact that she asks a lot of questions about Nicki's brother Keith. We have talked to her about "forever" and about when someone dies we cannot talk to them ever again. The concept of forever is not really sinking fast in but I think it is slowly. We have discussed how Keith is now and angel watching over us making sure we are safe. Whenever we tell her this there is almost a comfort look that comes over her. She is happy that Keith now has wings and can fly anywhere he wants to and watch us. Considering she has had breakdowns regarding the fact that she can never have wings and fly. It makes her happy that Keith can. All of these same concepts and emotions has been transferred/related to Luna. She smiles when I tell her Luna is now and angel and has wings.
Isabella also asks about what else can die. "Daddy can my doll die?" Then inevitable she starts expanding her questions to "Daddy can unicorns/dragons/other mythical creatures die?" Now when these come up my logic is since they don't exist I tell her no they can't die.
The question does still come up about why she had to go, but if you think about death in general you can ask that about any one, no matter how old or sick. Why them? Why now or then? I think as adults we learn not to ask these questions out loud, but we do vocalize them internally.
Find the comfort in today, be mindful. Hug extra tight, without looking over their shoulder to see what else is going on. Taste that much more, without only thinking about that next bite before you are done with the first. We only have today, right now and right here. It is a gift. The future hasn't happened and it never will... because it will be now!
Jonathan Livingston Seagull -
"Most of us came along ever so slowly. We went from one world into another that was almost exactly like it, forgetting right away where we had come from, not caring where we were headed, living for the moment. Do you have any idea how many lives we must have gone though before we even got the first idea that there is more to life than eating, or fighting, or power in the Flock? A thousand lives, Jon, ten thousand! And then another hundred lives until we began to learn that there is such a thing as perfection, and another hundred again to get the idea that our purpose is to find that perfection and show it forth. The same rule holds for us now, of course: we choose our next world through what we learn in this one. Learn nothing, and the next world is the same as this one, all the same limitations and lead weights to overcome."
"If our friendship depends on things like space and time, then when we finally overcome space and time, we've destroyed our own brotherhood! But overcome space, and all we have left is Here. Overcome time, and all we have left is Now. And in the middle of Here and Now, don't you think that we might see each other once or twice? "
"Don’t believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding. "
"When you come to the edge of all the light you have known, and are about to step out into darkness, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen There will be something to stand on, or you will be taught to fly."